bitter sweet

Bitter sweet. That's the season of life I'm in right now. The sweet part is that I LOVE the stage my kids are in. My days are no longer filled with sleepless nights, diapers, constant tears (from mommy and child), continuous discipline.... NO breaks. And although there was much to love about that season of life I'm thankful that I'm done with it for now. I love watching my children grow and blossom into beautiful little people. I love that they are growing up and changing and maturing. I love how they love each other. (Seriously, when we pick up Hannah from school Caden gives her a hug and kiss. Every day.) I love getting time to play one on one with Caden during the day while Hannah's away at school. I love the relaxed pace of the day; enjoying a little time to myself during nap time.

The other night we had friends over for dinner and Hannah came inside to help me. And it was actually helpful! I well remember those days of her wanting to "help" when she was younger and how it always ended up being more work. I remember in those times thinking how wonderful it would be when she actually could help. And now she can. I love it. I love getting ready for a party with her.

The bitter part. Well, they're growing up. I dropped off Hannah for school on Friday and cried my little heart out the whole way home. I cannot describe how much I miss her when she's gone. Our house is just not the same without my bubbly, energetic, happy-go-lucky little girl around. She just brightens up each day. And when she comes home she goes right outside to play with her friends. And my momma's heart aches just a little.

Caden. I can't believe how much he's grown up over the last year. He's definitely grown close to his Daddy, which I am SO thankful for. But he's my BABY! And my momma's heart aches for my little boy to sit in my lap and hug on his mommy and tell her she's bootiful!

It's just so hard and so wonderful all at the same time.

Ecclesiastes 3:1
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven"
Ecclesiastes 3:11
"He has made everything beautiful in its time."